Trust and Believe
I think it is about time for me to write another entry in my blog, to fill in my loved ones on what God is doing in my life and how I am growing and learning.
I am so blown away by the goodness of God. Every day I thank Him for what He is doing. This is a season of reaping for me, of receiving from Him. God has provided for every need and not only my needs but the desires of my heart.
I have had a lot of people bless me financially this year and each one who has given and invested into my future holds a special place in my heart. It is overwhelming to experience such generosity. I love to give to others and I have learnt a lot through giving but receiving is just as challenging. To receive and not be able to give back takes a strength and humility. To allow people to meet a need in your life requires vulnerability. I don’t think this is something that any person finds easy but any daughter finds it easy to go to a great father and ask for what she needs.
God loves to bless us. He meets our needs every day. It is a given. He also wants to go above and beyond that and give us more than we can imagine, to give us what we desire more than anything. He placed those desires there and He wants to be the provider of them.
Recently I have seen this happening every day. I have been given the opportunity to see dreams fulfilled, I got to lead worship this week at the Bethel prayer rooms, I have got my dream trip to South Africa next year and I will be visiting Washington DC in December. Some of these dreams were like throw away thoughts in my head. I have imagined myself going to DC but I didn’t have it really high up on my list of dreams, it was a fleeting thought and God is showing me that he sees the tiniest of thoughts, He is faithful in the small and the big.
I think one of the biggest things I have learnt through seeing these dreams come true is that I no longer have reason to doubt God in the fulfillment of my dreams. I am seeing Him provide these things. When I am in a season of waiting, I start to loose faith, I may start to doubt whether or not it will happen but when I have testimony of God providing, how dare I doubt? How dare I shake in my resolve, I must press on, I must trust in His goodness and faithfulness. It says in Hebrews 11v11,” It was by faith that even Sarah was able to have a child, though she was barren and was too old. She believed that God would keep His promise.”
Trust and believe.
Believe in the nature of God who loves us and wants to give to us. It might not be in our timing but God knows when we will be ready for what we want. It reminds me of being a teenager. I got to an age were I really wanted to stay at home and look after myself, when my parents went out for the evening but, they knew I wasn’t responsible enough. I felt responsible enough. I felt like I could handle it but my parents knew better, and then they also knew when I was old enough, mature enough to handle it and they allowed me to be at home alone. I felt frustrated and impatient but my parents knew better. God knows better, He knows us better than we know ourselves and he provides when He knows we can steward those dreams well.
My dreams are coming true, I am seeing the fruit of stewarding well what God has given to me and it is beautiful. It is a season and I know that this doesn’t mean that I have to stop working. There are areas that I am sowing into.
This week I have been challenged about seeing myself as a daughter amongst leaders. I have incredible parents (I don’t think I mention that enough really) and I know I am loved by them and I feel so safe with them but when it comes to being a daughter under leaders, especially in church, I struggle to trust, I struggle to be vulnerable because I’m just not comfortable.
This was a huge revelation for me.
I want to be an example to young women of how to be a great daughter, of how to be a woman who knows who she is in every area of life and I still need to grow. I need to be able to position myself below leaders who I want to learn from. I need to know how to be a daughter to leaders because I need to know how to steward their vision well, I need to know how to ask them for things and be open to direction and input from them.
I also need to learn to be a daughter in my city, to respect and honour my government leaders but also to take responsibility for my city. If I want to see change there I need to step out and be the change. This involves knowing that I am seen in my community, knowing I am a valued part of it and my contribution there can make a difference. EVERYTHING we do comes out of who we are, or who we know ourselves to be. It is so vital that we position ourselves for the change we want to see. If I want to see revival in my city, in Belfast, then I have to be the person to start it.
I want to set a bit of a challenge to you, to look around in your life and evaluate yourself on whether or not you are walking in full sonship, to God and to your leaders and family. Are you in a position where you have leaders as well? People who you can learn from and serve.
We need to know what we are capable of accessing, we have people in our communities with incredible giftings and talents and when we enter relationship with them and serve them and what they are doing then we get to a point were we can ask them for what we need. I have spent a lot of time recently just hanging around at Bethel, it is my church and I can spend as much time there as I want and it has given me opportunity to meet people I never would have spoken to before or even had a chance to speak to. I am able to learn from observing my leaders and I am able to serve them by being available. It is that easy, just positioning yourself as a son or daughter can open doors to opportunities to walk in it.
Its been a bit of a long blog this week but I feel like I am overflowing with revelation at the moment. I have a really high value for giving my breakthroughs away. I will persevere in learning to be a daughter because I want to be able to give away that breakthrough. I want to embrace the process so that others don’t have to work for it but can receive it from me. I hope you enjoyed this and I will blog again soon.
Love to you all